Stay Hungry.

What is a day without a man fighting for his dreams?


What do you do? I got asked this question alot. Are you a dragonboater? "Nah". I'll say as i shake my head. Do you play football? Nope" then ill start to get really annoyed. "Im a bodybuilder". Ill say. Then they take a step back and scratch their heads. Trying to comprehend what i do. Then they'll start asking for tips to lose weight and saying what the've heard that we eat alot.


Whats fun? I want to win. Whats love? It does no good to me. What's friends? They give and not expect. Whats pain? Pain is glory is disguise. What's disipline? Its what maketh me. Devotion? That's what i do. Dedication? That's what i love by. Lonely? That's what i've never been. Happy? That's what i am and never be. Satisfied? Far from it. Privacy? Have not much of it. What i do i make known to others because i am proud of it.


Anyway here are some pics of the days of my typical morning. Its not a pretty sight.

A thousand reasons to say fuck this and go home. A few dire reasons to stay. How many of us trains through the pain and push ourselves over the limit. How many of us sticks to our principles through thick and thin. Many men run on energy. How many of us runs on passion?


I've been here long enough to know that people come and go. People change. Philopsophies met and lost. Through all the pain and struggle in life i know that one thing is certain - A 200 pounds is a 200 pounds and nothing can change that. As long as i stick by the rules and my principles are followed, ill prosper to this light. If there's one person left to beat - Its me.


I am flawed. I am too trying hard to perfect myself. Striving for total disipline. Its difficult when part of you is human. I am trying.


My head's spinning. My back's aching. I can hardly stand up from the balls to the wall leg training yesterday but i have expectations to meet. Life has to go on.

Labels: A thousand reasons to say fuck this and go home

Whats bodybuilding? I get asked that question all the time. Bodybuilding is more than a hobby. Its a chosen lifestyle. Its where the strong grows and the weak perishes. It is where talent lies in genetics and practice comes with disipline. It is where cheats feels the heat of their doings and the dedicated achieves. You have to have passion to breathe and motivation to keep you moving.


Bodybuilding is a whole religion to itself. It teaches you the do's and dont's. It teaches you the right from the wrongs. It speaks by itself. Where arrogance will be your downfall. It tells you that there is no one going to do it for you except yourself - to be self dependant. It shows that cheats and those who are lazy fails. It teaches you to be spirtually inclined to reach greater heights. Where faiths and believes are all that you have. When nothing in life is promised except death. You hear people asking you to cherish what you have. For i have bones, skin and flesh as well as genetics passed down from my old man. To reach greater heights and always moving forward with subtle chains to remind us of mortality.



I love what i do. I couldnt lie to myself to that. Every moment of it is a living dream. For who i am and what i'll do. Ill never give up bodybuilding. Its my calling.

Labels: My calling

Bodybuilding is like a cold slap of water to the face. I learned things that i never knew was of importance or existed. I learned how to channel my emotions positively. The gym is more than a place of weights, bars and smelly men. It is a place of solitude. A place i could call a second home. Being there just seems perfect. Everythings in place. Everythings seems right/


This is what i do. This is the life that i have chosen. Fuck it if its a uphill struggle or a downstream fall. There's no sidetracks to this. I love what i do. I was like i was born to do this. I found myself, my identity in those pile of weights. My whole life is pictured infront of me and it gets closer with every moment that passes. This hardship i go through is so real. Is it a choice? Fuck yeah it is. Is this a need? Nope this is a want. I have chosen this and i want it fucking bad. So fuck everything. Stop living life in denial. Flush your excuses down the bowl and live life how it is supposed to be. Dedication hydher. Disipline is everything. You're one meal away from failure.

Life. Just when you taught you've made the mark it shoots you down. Another mother fucking obstacle. Hesitate? Whats the point? It'll get you nowhere. Argue to prove a point? Im far from it. If you wana fight there's always kick boxing or karate you can take up. Im here for a purpose and one purpose only. So fuck everything else. Im here, i brought my gears and im gonna dig like a fucking animal until it gets me there.


I put my life like a plant. As long as the sun shines, the rain falls and the soils favourable, i grow. Times when the sun dont shine, the rain dont come, and the soil aint favourable, i wait. You see, life is a balance and so is bodybuilding. Rest, Meals and training. They work together. You dont sleep for the night and expect a successful training. You dont eat right and not train for the day. If you cant get your shit together then stop pissing in the wind. Find another place to hang out and get out of my fucking gym. Call what you do strength training because bodybuilding is already full of posers and wannabies that makes the word stinks so bad.


Realise that the lifestyles we lead are different. So much so that it requires a certain type of mentality to flourish, to grow. A certain type of individuality. A strong character. You like to be a team player? Are you a born leader? You pry on teamwork? Then fucking pic another sport because this shit aint for you. In here you get down to the floor to wipe your puke and you get back up on your fucking ass because no one is gonna do it for you. Stop cheating and deluding yourself from the actual gains. In a game where there are no teammates. You stand alone on the field. Which direction you go depends solely on you.


I am hungry for success more than anyone i know. I gained 30kg in a year and a half. I dedicated my life. I learned work ethics. The meaning of hard work. I speak from experience. I mature from encounters. I live for being in the gym. Always weighing out the balance to make it work. Walking the fine line.


I see the house is empty and the lights are still on. The lane is clear but untouched. Its my calling and i hear it. 292 days left on my bowl. Its time to floor this shit.

Labels: the calling

Psst.. Who wants to get to know the secret to get big? Who wants the secret formula that big people in the gym swear by it? We all think there is. We hope there is. We pursue that perfect workout. That perfect meal plan that's gona make you the next mr olympia.


Wake up from your fairytail bitch. The truth is there isnt. Dont waste your time asking and finding the ringing answers. Stop beating around the bush and get your hands dirty because time's not meant to be wasted. Stop fucking around and spitting in the wind. Know what has to be done. Do what has to be done. Listen to your inner selt. Do what you feel is right. There's no get big quick formula you gonna find in the locker. No drug formula thats gona be worth your dough. It boils down to hardwork, hardwork and more hardwork. There aint to miracle protein. No get big quick weight gainer. Get your ass to bed on time. Get up on time. Eat and train on time. Time not gona wait for you. Once you've passed that window of opportunity its time to pack up and go home coz it wont be coming back EVER. Same goes during your workout. Stop hesitating and staring at the hot chicky's ass across the room because it'll get you nowhere. We're here for the same purpose and let us let it stay that way. Fuck everything else. I always remind myself before grasping that cold iron that ive done it before and imma do it again. Nothing's gona stop me.


I put so much effort into building my empire. Ive payed the price. Went through hell and back. Face the shit that came with it. Got churned up and spat out. So If you think imma stand here and watch it get burned then you're wrong. Everyday is a struggle. Everyday is a challenge. Pain is temporary but glory is forever. I love this shit. Every moment of it is a dedication. So fuck fun i want to win. Brick by brick. Step by step. Rep by rep. Im gona nail this to the fucking wall.

Labels: Secret formula.

Current stats as if of 14/3/2007. 1.79m. 92kg.

Labels: Progression pics

Bodybuilding is a line drown across the sand. We are free to move but with chains to our neck. This subtle chains reminds us to what separates. To what maketh us. Most of us remain single with the fears of being emotionally attached. To those who swayed because they wanted someone or somewhere to go home to every night lost it all together. If you want something much easier then pick another sport. Some other sports which you can hang your jersey up after you call it a day. This sport has just too many posers and wannabies. Most of us could hardly relate to a more laid back lifestyle. Like the saying goes - The meaning of life is not just to exists,or survive,but to move ahead,achieve,go up and conquer.



Life now have always been about breaking the sameness. My life have always revolved around me. I kept to myself ever since i was a kid, opening up only to those who asked or bothered to listen. As bodybuilders we dont do different things, we do things differently. We dont submit to conversal thinking. We choosed never to stay satisfied. We always want something more. We always demand something more from ourselves. What is there to be partying and clubbing for? Ive yet to achieve. A smile? Who gives a fuck about a smile? I have legs. What? My socks dun match? Who cares as long as my calves do. I would eat sand if i think it would make my stand stronger.



Most people potray bodybuilders as meat heads. You know what i think? Instead of being mindless sheep roaming around a place called earth, we make our dreams into reality through hardwork, passion, dedication and sacrifises. To have both a great mind and body would just be too perfect for others to comprehend. Its all about hardwork. Always on the go lifestyle. Staying hungry.



Remember brothers. The more you sweat, the less you'll bleed. Hardwork pays. Period



Strength and honour
Hydher

Labels: Hardcore only. No posers

Life isnt what it used to be. Days when i could worry about nothing. Days when i could run home and hide im my room. I feel the responsibility put against me. So much expectations to meet.


I want people to know that from where i came up from, i grew up to be a different person. I didnt had anyone to confide in but myself. I didnt like people telling me what i could or not do. I choosed only to mix around with those who i wanted to. I grew up in a world that i wanted to be in. A world that i shaped myself. My parents seemed only to be of a disiplinary relationship and sisters were only there because they existed. I got into a relationship with so much expectations to meet but i left with none obliged. I neglected myself at that phrase of time. I directed all emotions and effort into building what was between us that i forgot about finding myself. I was souless. I didnt know who i was. It ended as soon as it came. I left with nothing. Drifting into a world of negligence. I was depressed. Pathetic.


Then one day. I knew that i had to accept what happened. I had to learn from it. I knew that it was an uphill struggle but i didnt want to run from it for all my life. I wanted to face it. I wanted to carry on with life. Slowly but surely i did on my own. I learnt to channel my emotions and thoughts correctly. It wasnt easy especially when everything around me reminded me of her. When all i ever used to live for was her. It was like losing a limb. She was a friend, a lover, a sister and a mother to me. One thing that i ever learnt in life is to accept.



Things have changed. I respect my parents. They are my role models. My grandparents for being proud of me. I love my sisters because they are supportive. I could easily name those who mean the world to me right now. Paul who has always believe in me and there for me to confide in. Myren who understand me most of the time and hold no grudges. Jia hong for believing in me. David for understanding me. Chi wei for looking up to me. Thank you all for being there.


Who doesnt want to win? We doesnt want to be the best in whatever he does. But who is willing to put in as much effort and dedication to his doings? Why do people hate me so much? Why do they want me to see me fail and fall so much? Why do they see this as a challenge? Why do they use me to cover their own insecurities? My life isnt a competition. Bodybuilding is what i do but it isnt who i am. So dont judge me. Im just a man with a dream. A vision. Walking my own path to my maker. If there's someone in front of me then ill keep my distance and wait my turn. Until then. I hate no one. Dislike no one. Respect everyone. I just want to be me and work towards my goal. So please to the haters. See that. Its all business. Nothing personal.

Labels: Peace

Resistance is beautiful.
To find comfort in pain.


Pain is weakness leaving the body. The more you sweat, the less you bleed. Like pieces in a puzzle they fit.


Im proud to say that whatever i have accomplished now is a result of hardwork and disipline as well as the positive support from my close ones. Many saw the results but hardly the effort. I wouldnt say that i have achieved much but what i have now is the most that i have ever gotten. Thank you for those who showed me support- I will not fail you. This is who i am but this isnt who i will always be.


I wouldnt want to submit to conversal thinking ever. You know what im talking about. What others say you must take or do to get results. Call me stubborn or ignorant but resisting was what i have ever done or did. What others had long accepted i refused. The pain. Simple life pleasures. Shortcuts. There's no shortcuts to success brothers. I dont believe in them and never will. I learned to be cold. I taught myself things that others had no clue about. I know that no one or nothing will get in my way. No one can put me down. I am a warrior. The pain i went through. The battles. Words are powerful but its gona take more than that to put me down. I want to be an inspiration to those around me.


I dont want to be just another person. I dont want to be just another bodybuilder. I demand more. I want more. I need more.


You know what. People ask too many questions and expect the same amount of answers back. The truth is you aint gona get half as much as u asked for. I used to be the one asked. Ive stop long ago. For questions you ask, for all the answers you need, is all inside of you to answer. Its in your face. So stop asking questions and get the job done.


Living the dream.


Progression pics. 17 years.

Labels: Resistance

Labels: I will achieve